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For as long as I have roleplayed, I have always enjoyed the thought of my character being in love and possibly even getting married. In some ways its that childish joy from playing with dolls. I've never quite managed it though. Back when I was dating a fellow larper, I couldn't quit find a hook, I struggled to have my character favour *anyone*. Perhaps the character was the essence of my singlehood, fierce, dominant, independent.
I have continued to struggle to find my characters love. Its almost as though no one is good enough for them. I've had some awful relationships, and gone out with people who just were not right. So why am I so protective of my characters, but not myself? Do I respect them more than myself?
What kind of character would I need to create for it to fall in love? My instinct is a lonely person, someone who lacks something that can only be found in others. But these aren't the only kinds of people who fall in love. IMO, We fall in love when we meet someone who we feel akin to, and we can do this when we are perfectly content within ourselves.
So maybe, I was looking for the wrong opportunities for my characters, and should have been looking for similarities between them and others, remembering love is not entirely predictable.
I have continued to struggle to find my characters love. Its almost as though no one is good enough for them. I've had some awful relationships, and gone out with people who just were not right. So why am I so protective of my characters, but not myself? Do I respect them more than myself?
What kind of character would I need to create for it to fall in love? My instinct is a lonely person, someone who lacks something that can only be found in others. But these aren't the only kinds of people who fall in love. IMO, We fall in love when we meet someone who we feel akin to, and we can do this when we are perfectly content within ourselves.
So maybe, I was looking for the wrong opportunities for my characters, and should have been looking for similarities between them and others, remembering love is not entirely predictable.
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I've had plenty of characters end up in relationships after the RP is over, especially when I was playing the child of a former character in a Shadowrun campaign. But even then it was hardly a normal relationship.
I think for me it was hard because I was so busy struggling with my own self image, that I wasn't willing to risk things in front of others. Paint me oblivious, but I barely noticed that other people existed in college, let alone that they might have been interested.
Finally in this most recent campaign did I manage to have something resembling a normal relationship, though tellingly it ended up being between two female characters. Perhaps more appropriate to the whole self discovery thing, when I initially made the relationship overtures, the female character in question was pretending to be a man.
Err...long story.
I'm not sure if I had a point here, or if I was just babbling on about roleplaying.
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No I liked hearing your experiences and thoughts :)